So, I think it's about time I wrote a little update about myself and stuff that's been going on with me again.
As indicated by the picture, I've been having some very good days lately and generally, everything has been doing pretty well.
Since the last Friday (13.7), I've had days ranging from good to very, very good. No bad days at all!
Which is very surprising, since I haven't had such good days in a long time. I don't quite know which factors contributed to this sudden uprising in happiness, but hey, I definitely won't complain! Sadly it has degraded a bit since then, but it's still all good. The main reasons as to why I'm not quite as happy as I could be is mostly that, at the same time, I've drastically reduced the amount of work I did, so my lack of productivity is bringing my mood down a bit. The other reason is that I'm currently in a bit of a downer mood, but that's mostly because my brain appears to be digesting some emotional stuff and other mysteries of life, of which I am quite ignorant of, as it mostly works in the subconscious and my conscious brain is more often than not very unaware of what's happening there. I do think I know the cause of this debate my brain is having though. I've started watching Hanasaku Iroha today and, for some reason, it really seems to take me in. I just hope I can digest this quickly and get back to my new, cheery attitude.
As an interesting side effect of being so cheery, I've started hopping around while walking outside and generally really enjoy going outside for a stroll now. And of course, bad news have a harder time to make me feel down and so on. Generally, aside from losing some work force, there really is no downside to this and I genuinely wish to keep this up.
Of course, being happy isn't the true reason for not working. That would be pretty stupid. No, the reason for me not working as much recently is because I started watching a lot more shows and stuff again, so a lot of my time is committed to that, instead of my projects. However, there's a reason for this as well. It is quite simple really. I'm pretty much done with TyNETv4's main aspects and requirements, and with that pressure gone, my will to work on it and its side projects has sunken dramatically. I'm also reluctant to pick up other projects, as it would mean changing my programming mindset to Java again and, most importantly, focusing on entirely different aspects of programming. Still, I'll see that I can, at the very least, get some more juice out of myself. After all, I'm not dried up and old quite yet!
I also had a very long break with my artistry, which has saddened me quite a bit, prior to my happy days (Note: I do not count re-boot updates as artistry). I have managed to pick it up a little again, as indicated by the few Suiseiseki sketches I've made. I wish to get more into sketch-work, as that's a skill I am seriously lacking. I have a very hard time at just loosening myself and letting it flow out of my hand. I'm always too worked up over flaws and I believe that that not only makes me slower, but also makes my artwork appear a lot stiffer, more lifeless and generally less interesting than it could and should be. So yes, I intend to concentrate on more sketchy stuff from now on.
Aside from my usual programming and artsy stories, I'd also like to note that I want to pick up learning Japanese again. Not because of some weeaboo faggot reason, mind you, but simply because I think it's a beautiful language. I love the sound of it and I always wanted to be able to speak it. Of course, it'll take me a loooong time to even come close to being fluent in it (after all, I've been writing English on a daily basis for around 8 years now, but I'm still not as good as I would like), but even if I don't manage to do that to its fullest, I think it's worth a try to learn it even partially.
Stuff going on, me being happy, what is the world coming to?
I don't know!
We'll see and, no matter how it goes, it'll work out in some fashion.
And that'll be good enough.